her

i didn’t realize

i was in love with her

until she started hurting

and it broke me to pieces.

her eyes filled with tears

and i felt every part of me shatter.

her sadness made me want to give her

every sliver of happiness i have.

i want to give her the world.

i want to see her smile

and hear her laugh.

i want to hold her hand

and tell her she’s beautiful.

i want her to show her she’s worth

so much more

than how she feels.

but sexuality is a road block.

for all i know, she doesn’t see me

in the same light i see her.

she is a goddess

and i’m just her best friend.

i guess i’ll just admire her from afar.

until then, i’ll never let her forget

that she’s worth something

and she deserves the world.

v.w.

5.10.19

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i’ve never felt like i was alone while i was with you

but something changed

you put up walls

and you felt distant

and suddenly i realized

you don’t love me

every time

i say it

you ignore me

i can see the end coming

the end of the tunnel is dark

and it’s lonely

and you’re not there

3.25.19

v.w

how i fell in love

i can’t stop thinking about the first time i fell asleep wrapped up in your arms.

the way you held me throughout the night, and the way you kissed me.

as time went by, we started seeing more of each other.

and there were forehead kisses, and tickle fights, and we would cuddle on the couch until we fell asleep.

the more we saw each other, the more intimate out visits became.

and i don’t mean sex, i mean little things that you do when you love someone.

like kiss their hands or lock eyes for a second.

and i know all this is going to end.

as much as i want to still call you mine, i know i’m going to be let down.

and i’m going to cry.

and i’m going to regret falling in love with you.

but for now, you are mine. and i’m going to embrace my time with you, before it runs out.

because at the end of the day, at least i can say i was happy.

v.w.

2.26.19