you

i still think of you

the way you held me

the way your lips tasted

the feeling of your skin against mine

i miss they way we used to laugh

i miss falling asleep in your arms

i miss kissing you

i miss holding your hand

and seeing you smile

i loved you more

than you did me

i always have

and you proved that to me

i gave you everything i had

and you threw it in the dirt

and when i was small

and helpless

you abandoned me

i want you

to love me

to make me feel wanted

i want to give you

everything you couldn’t give me

because it’s what you deserve

and despite what you did

i’ve never been this hung up

on someone

you still give me butterflies

and i’ve moved on

but you’re still stuck

in my fucking head

why can’t i let you go

v.w

07.10.19

sleep

it’s been forever

since i’ve been able

to close my eyes

and drift off.

the thought of you

remains in my mind.

your smile,

your laugh,

the way you say my name.

i couldn’t stay away

i drove to your house

and finally fell asleep

in your arms

v.w.

2.28.19